My lack of solid, substantive relationships came to a head today
I realized that my ability to create friendships is rather weak, which is an underlying problem for anything stronger than just a friendship, and for keeping and maintaining current friendships
One major issue is that while I'm empathic, I have a difficult time stepping in other people's shoes
My inability to see things from the perspectives of others was masked by a couple things
First, my natural empathy helped me to understand the emotions of others, which helped me to think I understood them, but understanding rarely went deeper than emotion unless I managed to deduce something.
Second, I have the ability to see other perspectives to an extent, especially pertaining to things in which I have experience.
However, in spite of these things, my experience in relationships (friendships and otherwise) is rather limited due to how my life has happened, and, as a result, my ability to switch perspectives in regards to such things is extremely narrow.
I'm not going to specifically specify what behavior I recognized, but I realized at least one behavior I was engaging in.
Essentially I was engaging in a behavior that I knew was causing issues, but didn't quite "understand" until I actually put myself in their shoes.
Understanding puts me in a better position to avoid the behavior, but there's still things I need to do in order to improve.
When I can resolve these quandary's, I'll be in a better position to make friends and keep friendships. I'll be a better friend, which is a great goal, because it will help me stay happier.
I'm alive, so all is well
My feet were definitely killing me though, need some insoles for sure.
I have another one from Christmas Eve into Christmas Day! Wish me luck.
An Insane Amount of Hours
In addition to the 24-hour shift, I have 3 other 8 hour Eve shifts on schedule
I was told that I can pick up a Sleep Aid whenever I do an Eve shift, and since my Eve shifts already push me into overtime, I can potentially pick up a huge amount of hours this week, should they actually allow me to pick up a Sleep Aid for each Eve shift.
Romaine Lettuce, Walnuts, Apples, Feta Cheese, Cinnamon, and a dressing made of Olive oil, apple cider, cinnamon and allspice? What could be better?
The other day I stopped in by my old work to pick up a sandwich, yes, I still intend to eat there from time to time, both because I do enjoy their food and because it gives me a chance to keep in touch with former co-workers.
"Graduated" from the JRC program today!
I have two Overnight "Training" shifts, where I'll do a full, actual shift where I'm still counted as "training".
Then I'll have 30 days in which I can make mistakes that can be reported to training for a "retraining" and not count against my evaluations.
Then I'll have another 4 to 4 1/2 months where I'll be in my "probationary" period, after which I'll be considered a full-fledged employee and begin being eligible for things such as direct deposit, additional trainings, vacation time and more.
New Job Excitement
The new job offers a lot of potential if I don't screw it up
Not only is there career growth, but, if I want to take extra shifts, there's good opportunities for me to do that, and, by doing that, I can make a lot of extra funds which I can use to pay down debts and get myself on solid footing
Of course there's career growth too. With some extra schooling I can work my way up to a much higher position after a few years, with some excellent pay which I can use to support a life: a wife, kids, the beginnings of a family. (I can get other, smaller promotions along the way if I perform well).
My friend from WoW, who I'll call Geek Girl, just to spite her, complained that I didn't give her a shout out in my most recent vlog, which is so wrong, because I gave her a shout out in an earlier one, but here, shouting out again. Geek girl is awesome! And one of my favorites. Oi!
Helped someone move today, and it was only a couple of things but I'm already exhausted. Hopefully work isn't too bad tonight.
I work from 3-11 today, which is different. We'll be getting some practical training in the residences, hence the late shift.
I got my car back today! Woohoooooooo!
I'm going to have to figure out what I want to do today before I go to work. I don't really have any errands to run, but I do have some things I could write.
Fun with Friends
Grady was upset that I didn't mention her epic vocals in my last vlog, you should check her channel out at ActinForever, somewhere in there she has two camp videos where she sings. If you can pick out her voice, you're better than I!
Shout to to Andrew, my best friend who I never talk to! Gah.
Technically today was "Practical Application of Physical Skills (PAPS)" which made it sound like we were going to be tested physically on what we were learned, but we just had one simple paper quiz and then some more Safety Care training.
Tired and exhausted, like yesterday!
I was restrained for about 15 minutes or more in one go today as part of a demonstration, it was not easy! It's obvious why the most restrictive restraints are a last resort and very heavily regulated.
I get it back tomorrow!
I realized how much my car picks up by experiencing the lack thereof in my sister's car
I still HATE driving, but I definitely miss having my own vehicle
Have had fun on OkCupid meeting new people, it's nice to make friends as well as seek out potential relationships.
Have just recently met an inspiring young woman with a passion for music and singing, she offers lessons. Wonder if I should take her up on them!